Live your lie

People never cease to amaze me.

They bitch and moan about all the shit they’re going through(like I am right now) and yet without it, where would they be?

Sure peace would be great the first few weeks, but without turmoil and problems to spice things up can we really be called alive?

Pain is great for namely two things:
1. It’s so horrible that there’s no way you’ll do a stupid thing twice if you get hurt on the first.
2. It’s a sign that you’re still alive.

A lot of people need pain to define who, what they are. This addiction to pain is amusing at most because of the fact that even though we say we don’t like getting hurt, it’s what keeps us alive.

Good job humanity.

To be honest I don’t really know what to do with my life right now.
I just applied to a uni a few days ago and my intake is in January (this karma shit is working after all) so I’ve just been bored out of my skull lately.

I’ve been trying to get myself into a relationship again, as advised by some people, and let’s just say that it’s not going very well. Can’t even go on a single date with just about anyone. Apparently people aren’t into witty sarcastic remarks anymore. Go figure.

Is it my fault that the people I’m interested in aren’t interested in me? Oh wait… Yes it is. I dunno if it’s the sarcasm but I can’t seem to connect with rapid succession with anyone these days. I mean some won’t even reply my text messages dammit. It’s not like I’m going after you deary, I just need someone to frickin’ talk to.

Shooting people down before they even take off should be fucking illegal.

"We learn through mistakes", "What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger"

Ok, these two lines have been WAY overused these last couple of decades. Not really a big fan of both cause I think they’re crap talk used to make you feel better when you fuck something up.

"We learn through mistakes."
Don’t really have anything against this one. At least not until it’s said for the THIRTIETH time. I mean seriously. The whole trial and error thing is nice and all, but when you screw things up one too many times, it’s time to start thinking bout doing something else that you’re good at. But the spirit of man is undying, so meh.

"What doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger."
Sure buddy, but note that that which does not kill you, MAY render you helplessly immobile, crippled or stuck in a vegetative state. I mean sure the idea that you survived an ordeal may just be the thing you need to get through another but also bear in mind that if your mind isn’t strong enough, it’s more likely to leave you traumatized than motivated. Which is sort of why I disagree with this statement.

Hey guys.
Me again.

Dunno if anyone reads this shit, but I’m just gonna think some people still give a damn. Which is why I’m writing this right now.

Haven’t updated in about what? 2 years?
Just didn’t have any sudden strikes of inspiration and I didn’t really think that anyone needs to know the details to my life.

So anyway I’m writing again.
So, if anyone actually reads this, you’ll probably see some posts from here on out.

Bah I’m bored… and when so it can’t ever be a good thing. So that’s why I’m writing again! Boredom makes me, builds me, and will one day, kill me. So let’s start ranting shall we?

Life is, in a word, weird. A thing that’s considered to be the greatest thing you do in the past, may be the lamest thing you do now. Simple example, a guy is called a nerd and is mocked for studying too hard. Dammit man, he’s just trying to get through school with good grades! And you assholes just have to mock and tease him all day long and whatnot. And God forbid he has a scrawny or pudgy physique, wears thick glasses, has no athletic abilities and doesn’t have any material possessions of any importance. But of course, such a kid is just too…. Extreme to exist. But then again, who knows? Another example, when you’re old it’s good to be religious and possess a good quality of faith. But, when you’re a teenager… I can’t really say the same thing. Ok, so you’re appreciated in church, but when you bring that stuff to school and get a bit too enthusiastic about it, the most probable thing is that you’re ‘cool’ peers will, again, mock you and whatnot. Well that’s what I’ve been seeing on the outside anyway, I dunno what’s happening backstage. So I can probably summarize that showing any kind of kindness towards people that you don’t know, or being too enthusiastic about something is, in a word, uncool, and the coolest people are usually the most corrupted ones. Well, maybe not corrupted, but let’s face it, kids at school usually only appreciate those of athletic, insanely cute and/or handsome and talented musicians with a face to match(ok so the musician doesn’t have to look like an Adonis, but if they don’t, they have to be extra talented). Well usually these types aren’t so bright and the stereotypes for these types are that they are extreme jerks. But of course stereotyping is bad so the people say, so I’m just gonna hold it there for the while. I need more boredom if I’m ever gonna finish anything…

Well, the only hobbies that are approved to be ‘cool’ at school is prolly the sport section of things, other extracurricular activities aren’t so cool until a cool person joins said activity. Like the choir, it’s good to express yourself by singing rite? Well, if a band of geeks/nerds join it and they only have so-so singing ability, then get ready to go through the same shit you go through everyday. Unless of course you have something to offer to the community, like test answers for example. IMO there’s probably only one way that a nerd can be considered as neutral by kids at school, and that is by providing ANSWERS to TESTS. That, or they could take up some kind of sport of some sort. I mean they’re not that weak, rite? But of course if you act all freaky like in school… Ehhh… Can’t really say anything there… Not to mention if you have the mental age of a 5-year old… Yeesh… That’s creepy, weird and annoying at the same time! You have to be reaaaallllllll smart to make up for that big minus!

Another thing is that people these days only wanna hang out with you for what you currently have, or will have in the near future. Personally… I can get anything I want if I want it, but I choose to be a child who knows his place and thus doesn’t ask for much… Well, at least I think it’s not much anyway. I dunno maybe the reason I have friends is because they see a reason to be friends with me. I could treat them for lunch, dinner, movies etc for one thing. The only reason I do that is because, person who is reading this, I believe in a thing called karma. So whatever the hell I give, is sure to come back, doubled, nay TRIPLED, if the lord is so kind. So I’m indirectly expecting some payment… But come on… It’s not like payment from above comes everyday… Ok, so it does come everyday, I’m thankful enough I’m still alive to type this thing down… But from what I see, people wanna be your friends if, a) they want something from you b) you’ve been friends with them for as long as you can remember or c) you have power, reputation and instill some kind of fear in the hearts of the people around you. These days the word ‘friend’ means so many things that I just have no idea how to explain it.

And those are my two cents. Have a nice day people.